Father, the test is done. The results are not back yet.
The mind keeps trying to fill in the answer. The body knows something is up. The hours are longer than hours are supposed to be.
Hold the part of me that wants to know now and cannot. Be in the waiting, not just the verdict.
Whatever the result is, I want You there when I read it. Help me not promise You anything in exchange for the answer I want. Help me not bargain.
Just be here. In the wait. In the unknown. In the room where I am trying to act normal in front of people who do not know.
You already know the result. I do not need You to tell me. I need You to walk me to the moment I find out, and through the morning after.
In Jesus' name we pray. Amen.